For months after leaving my last relationship I couldn’t make decisions, it was very difficult to make even the most mundane and unimportant decisions. In the company of others I would let them decide because for me it didn’t matter and whatever the outcome was fine and that’s ok for ordering take away but not ok if you are trying to date again or as a matter as fact for trying to find out who you are outside on the finished long term relationship. When pushed I made decisions based on what is right putting others before me. I was never deserving enough.
It’s been over a year and I still shy away from decisions when it comes to relationships. I need to change this. By not making decisions or identifying what I want I am not taking responsibility for my part in that relationship and this doesn’t sit well with me. That’s not who I am. *deep breath*